Friday, January 27, 2012

Diving into the distraction

Cycle:  distraction leads to anxiety leads to depression (because you're not accomplishing anything) leads to negative self talk (you are so unoriginal) leads to more distraction (because you just want to get away from yourself) leads to more anxiety, etc., etc.

Sound familiar ADDers? 
I've been in this cycle all week and guess what?  It doesn't help me or anyone in my family.  So here's what I'm going to do (and it may sound radical):  I'm going to walk right into a distraction and stick with it.  That's right, you heard me.  I'm going to follow one distraction for a few hours to prove that a.) I can stick with one thing and b.) hope it helps break the cycle.  For me, it's nothing exciting - I'm going to clean my oven - but I've been dreading doing this for weeks and I need to face it.  Follow through and feel better.  I also set off the smoke detectors last night while heating up fish sticks because of all of the baked on goo left in the broiler, so I have incentive.

People with ADD tend to feel overwhelmed by even the smallest tasks when they are lumped together on a to-do list.  Cleaning my oven is not writing the articles or grad school papers I need to be doing, but as I listen to Mumford and Sons and scrub away the charred remains of last week's tilapia, I think I will find focus, which might possibly lead to inspiration, which then will start a happy cycle of creativity.